For Mother’s Day, I decided to have a different outlook on this day (instead of focusing on my lack) and look for the “Mothering Tender Mercies” in my life. I’ve been blessed to be an Aunt to 9 nieces and nephews on my side of the family and 20+ (I’ve lost count) on Hailame’s side of the family, but I wanted to dig even deeper than that.
Within a few weeks of getting married, and joining our new ward, I was asked to serve as the Music Leader for the Primary Children (ages ranges from 2-12). I would be given the opportunity to teach children scripture stories, the importance of their family, and helping them remember they are Children of God through songs.
Music has always been a large part of my life. Growing up, my Mother taught me to sing, and feel comfortable singing in front of large groups of people. As long as she was there playing the piano for me, I was good. In Middle School, I participated in the after school choir groups and in High School I participated in the Women’s Choir, Concert Choir, Senior Madrigals Advanced Choir, Musical Theater, School Musicals and private Voice Lessons actively all three years. Music really molded me into the person I am.
So to have the opportunity to connect with children through music was such a wonderful experience and Iwas able to learn so much about children. I learned how different age groups learned and took in the music, I learned to be flexible on days that the children were having difficulty paying attention and not taking interest in the song, and coming up with on the spot learning activities, I learned to love unconditional and patience, I learned how capable a child’s ability to soak in new learning experiences, and I learned even more how excited I was to be a Mom one day.
After 3 1/2 years of serving as the music leader, Hailame and I were asked to serve as Primary Teachers for 8-10 year old children, it was also the largest class in the primary (averaging 8-11 kids each Sunday)!
Hailame and I were so excited to get to do this together, and have loved the experience of teaching these children. It was no surprise that our class adores Hailame, he is a kid magnet everywhere he goes. Most Sunday’s when I show up in the classroom before Hailame the classes without missing a beat says, “Hi Sister Tua’one, where’s Brother Tua’one?”…. story of my life 🙂
This opportunity has been such a blessing in our marriage. I love watching Hailame interact with the children, and sharing his testimony, I love seeing the children have their own “ah-ha” moments as they learn and listen to the lessons.
But the part I love most is that I know that I have a Heavenly Father who is well aware of my ache and yearning to be a Mother, and while I’m continually trying to learn (even on my hardest days when all I want to do is lay in bed and mope) he is providing me with experiences to learn individually and with Hailame.
This time for us is a time to become better. I still don’t know what I’m fully supposed to learn from this trial we are experiencing, I just have to trust that when looking back on this time, I’ll be grateful for what I did learn and just soak in as many good experiences while I can.
Happy Late Mother’s Day.
love, hannah jane