You have no idea how hard it was for me to keep our grand news (ADOPTION!!!!) to myself! I think it was because this was the first time in a long time that we had good news to share and I was just dying to tell everyone!!
We wanted to tell our families before we shared the news, and now that they are fully in the loop, you can bet that I’m going to be talking about this a lot!!!
I want to share how we came to the decision to adopt, and how thankful we are to start this new adventure!
As I said from my last post, Hailame and I were brought to a crossroads in our Baby Making Journey, and had to decide how we wanted to move forward.
During our follow up appointment, we were told that we would have to do 3 more months of trial medications and tests to see if we could get our bodies to a place where they can conceive, however this time, the amount of money that we would have to put out would triple and it wasn’t a guarantee the medications would work.
This just about killed us. We were so hopeful that we would move forward with the IVF treatments and instead we found out we were no where near where we needed to be.
After the appointment, Hailame drove me back to work, and the drive back was silent. We didn’t even know what to say.
We were frustrated, heart broken, feeling bad, confused, and on the verge of tears (well at least I was).
The last half of my day just dragged. I couldn’t get my mind off of what we just went through.
Where were we going to get the money, how much longer would we have to do this trial run to get where we need to be, why can’t this be our time to start our family?
The next day, while at work, I kept thinking about adoption. I’m not sure why, because I had forced the idea to the back of my mind for so long because I was so determined that we were going to be able to have a baby on our own.
But the more I thought about it and started reading about it, the more it made sense that this was supposed to be the way we build our family.
I called Hailame during work and said, “Honey, I know this is NOT the conversation to have while at work or on the phone, but I need to say it now, I think we need to adopt a baby!”
The second I said it out loud I had peace just rush through me. This had been the answer to our endless prayers. God was opening a door for us, and I’m pretty sure the door had been there for a while, I just refused to look at it.
We both had our own personal confirmations that this was right road for us to be on, and it was going to be great adventure!
I never thought in a million years that we would ever adopt a baby, but for the first time in a long time, we can talk about our future children, without heart ache (or me breaking down uncontrollably) because I know this is exactly what we were meant to do, and we are blessed to be in this situation.
So here we are! Ready and so excited to move forward!
I hope you will join us in this adventure! We are stepping into new territory and we are open to all the advice, support and prayers we can get!
“Come What May and Love It!”
love, hannah jane