Happy Four Years My Love

***LATE POST DUE TO A MUCH NEEDED SOCIAL MEDIA FAST***

Dear Hailame,

It’s October 10, 2018.

Happy four years my love.

Anniversary

Happy 1,424 days full of memories with…

laughter, learning, forgiving, spontaneous road trips, hats laying around the house

lazy Saturday mornings, Thrift Store date nights, playing pickle ball, car dancing

Tongan singing lessons, banana bread, Temple dates, Netflix nights

spoiling our nieces and nephews, praying, swimming at the lake

late night walks around the temple, $5 movie dates, family functions

growing from trials, celebrating the little victories

praying and yearning start our family

enjoying the little moments together

and having an absolute blast.

Wedding Anniversary

 

Thank you for your endless positive outlook in seeing the good in life.

You are the cheese to my mac., the peanut butter to my homemade strawberry jam

the chocolate chip to my cookie

my best friend and the love of my life.

Ofa Lahi Atu.

Happy Anniversary.

love, your wife

 

 

This is Us, PCOS Month, & Infertility

****Just so you know…I’m talking about the Episode 1 of This is Us.  If you haven’t watched it, just know I warned you before sharing spoilers!

***If you don’t care, by all means keep reading!

**If you haven’t ever watching This is Us, please go and watch it!

I’ve been meaning to share my thoughts about PCOS all month, but I couldn’t gather my thoughts the way I had hoped.  I’m glad I kept putting it off because last night watching one of my favorite TV Shows ignited so many insights and impressions!  So here I am, two day’s before the month ends, sharing my thoughts about PCOS Awareness!

Enjoy!

I love that one of my favorite TV Shows, “This Is Us”, shared the raw and heart wrenching pain that comes from Infertility and PCOS, especially since September is PCOS Awareness Month.

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The reasoning why Kate was diagnosed with PCOS wasn’t fully accurate because PCOS is not always weight driven.  It is just one symptom of many other factors that are a part of PCOS (and for some, weight isn’t even involved in their diagnosis), but I still love that it was shared in this situation.  This article from Bustle was a great read for appreciating the exposure for PCOS, but wanting to clarify that there is so much more to PCOS.

Kate’s birthday party emotional break down is what really hit home for me in this whole episode.  I felt like Kate was reading my journal when she literally exploded all her frustration of being trapped in a body that wouldn’t lose the weight she worked tirelessly for, and couldn’t make the baby she yearned for.

I’ve been in situations when I’ve tried to explain my frustrations to a friend and I know that they fully care for me and want to help me, but just as Kate’s friends reacted, don’t always know what to say in moments like that.

For me, I don’t necessarily need to be told anything.  Most times, I just want to be heard and loved, but don’t want to be told what do to.  I’ve done so much homework on PCOS, and so I know what I need to do, and I actively try to work on everything I can to thrive in PCOS and Infertility.

So, when I unload my heart ache and frustration on someone (usually a very close friend, family member of my husband), most of the time it’s because I just needed to get it out because I had been bottling it up for so long and I needed to detox my soul.

I’m so thankful to those who have patiently listened and allowed me to open up.  These moments are not daily, but do happen every now and then and I’m so glad I have family and friends that I can confide in.

PCOS is a part of my life that I’m learning to accept and be actively taking care of, however, PCOS does not define me.

Most days I am spot on in taking care of my self, and I almost forget that I even have PCOS.  Some day don’t go so well and my symptoms are slapping me in the face.

I am 1 in 10 women who live with PCOS.

This 4 letter acronym answered so many questions I had been struggling with and in the exact same moment empowered me.

Infertility is not the end of the road for my husband and me.  It has been a bumpy, long, and emotional road, but we know there are other ways to grow our family and we are working our tails off to get through this Adoption Adventure.

Just like I appreciate Kate’s vulnerable moment of PCOS and Infertility watching this episode, I really loved Randall’s moment of joy when Deja told him she was ready to be officially adopted into their family.

I cannot wait until Hailame and I get to experience that moment of finding out we get to finally be parents through the sweet opportunity of adoption.

love, hannah jane

Some of my other insights and experiences with PCOS and Infertility

PCOS: A letter to the newly diagnosed

Infertility… and a bag of chips

Comparison is the Thief of Joy

Infertility Awareness Month

 

Hailame Feletoa Tua’one

I’d like to introduce my husband, favorite person and best friend, Hailame Feletoa Tua’one.  The man who you’ll rarely ever see not wearing a hat (and has 40+ laying around the house), who loves all things BYU, looks younger than majority of his siblings and has an Australian accent when he starts talking about the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

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I was planning on having him write about himself, but I’m pretty sure the whole post would consist of 3 sentences, and then he would say, “Babe, you already know me, just do it for me,” which he did say when I was asking him some questions about himself. :)… which shows how much I know about him!

From the perspective of his wife and his favorite person, I don’t want this post to seem to bias, some parts will be but I’ll do my best to share who he is as a individual, friend, uncle, brother, son, and future father.

Family Man

Hailame comes from a large Tongan family, like a really large Tongan family.  He is 3rd of 12 kids (6 boys and 6 girls) and is the oldest son.  He loves spending time with his family (especially his Dad and brothers) and is the beloved favorite Uncle of 30+ nieces and nephews!

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Something unique and wonderful about coming from the rich Tongan heritage is EXTENDED family relationships (and they are most definitely close relationships).  Hailame has combined, from both sides of the family, over 200 FIRST cousins, and they are as close as siblings are and all get together regularly.

The amount of love and support that comes from Hailame’s extended family is incredible.  They come to support each other for baby blessings, baptisms, birthdays, graduations, weddings and more.

 

Hailame loves his parents and family so much. He is a Mama’s Boy to his wonderful Mother, and his Dad’s #1 sidekick.  There isn’t a day that goes by that doesn’t he calls or texts one of his parents to check in on them to see how they are doing.  He lives to serve and support them in any way he can.

Working Man

Hailame gives all the credit to his father for his hard working ethic.  From a young age he was taught how to work, and work well.  He is regularly the first to offer to help others and the last to leave a function or event so he can help with cleaning up.

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When visiting family in Salt Lake City, you will most likely find Hailame spending his time working a long side his Dad, whether it be at his job or around the house.  He looks forward to continually learning from his Dad, as well as talking to and learning from his Dad about his Tongan heritage.

Hailame’s Mom was the first love of his life!  He loves spending time in the kitchen with her when she is preparing a wedding or birthday cake or desserts for an event.  His Mom taught him how to bake from a young age, and was given the nickname of “Pillsbury Boy” for his mad baking skills.

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A large part of Hailame’s big heart was from his Mom.  She is the #1 Mom, Grandma, Auntie, and Friend who will lives to bless others with her talents.

Hailame enjoys working and serving others, being productive and providing for our family.  He never sees any job below him, and is willing to put in the time to sufficiently provide.

People Person Man

Hailame loves spending time with people.  I can guarantee that if you come by our house, he will invite you to stay and ask if you would like anything to eat. On Sundays, he usually asks me to make a little extra dinner so he can invite friends over.

He loves meeting new people, and has a talent for remembering people, and their names.  Quite often, people won’t remember my name, but they’ll say, :”aren’t you married to Hyrum?”  Or “isn’t your husband the really awesome Polynesian?  He is so nice and so cool!”  I can accept it, because I always agree that he is an awesome Polynesian and super nice and way cool!  I know…I have great taste… I married him obviously!

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Hailame has a way of people putting people at ease when they are around him.  He is easy to talk to, will start up the conversation if no one is talking, and will leave with a new friend by the end of the conversation.

Fun Man

In addition to being a people person man, Hailame is also a fun man!  If you’re hanging out with Hailame, you will most likely be listening to music because he LOVES music and he carries a mini and/or larger Bluetooth speaker around with him EVERYWHERE he goes.

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He loves playing pickleball, and especially enjoys teaching our friends how to play pickleball, so he has more friends to play with.  If he had his way, we would be playing pickleball every single night of the week!

Playing card games is a regular activity in our relationship.  A tradition he started early in our marriage was playing cards when we go out to eat while waiting for our food to come.  When we invite friends to our house, we play cards, when we go up north to visit family, he plays cards until 1 or 2 in the morning with his Dad, Mom and brothers.

Hailame has a very contagious positive outlook on life.  It’s hard to not have his good attitude and happiness effect you because he has such a huge heart and is always trying to make others happy around him.  Very few things in life upset him (one of the few… when BYU loses a football game), and he has a way with helping others see the good in life.

Christlike Man

Hailame is a man of action when it comes to living the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  He loves to serve those around him.  He attributes his dedication to living a Christlike life to his parents who taught by example what it means to minister and give to those and need.   His testimony of the Gospel shows through the way he lives his life and how he serves and loves those around him.

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His motto in sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ is “Open Your Mouth.”  He believes that the best way in reaching out to those is putting aside your fears and opening your mouth.  He is the best at speaking to those he doesn’t know and does his best to find how he can help them and showing true Christlike love to them.

Future Father Man

Obviously this small post can’t possibly encompass and describe the man that Hailame is, but I hope that it will give a small glimpse into the kind of Future Father he will be one day.

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Hailame is going to be a wonderful dad.  The children that come into our home will be completely adored by him and they will know daily how much he loves them and who their #1 Fan is for life.  He will teach by example how to be good, honest, selfless, patient, and hardworking.

He was made to be dad and I promise you, he will be the best dad.

love,

His #1 Fan

hannah jane

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Happy Birthday Baby Tupou!

Dear Baby Tupou,

Today is your 1st birthday, Happy Birthday!

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In the one year you have been alive, you have done more for our baby yearning hearts than you will ever know.

I still remember the moment I knew you and I were going to be kindred spirits!  It was a simple moment, not one that many would recognize as being life changing, but for me, it was special.

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It was during a musical we were watching that Big Tupou was performing in.  We were hanging out during the intermission, and I asked your Mom if I could hold you, and the second I held you in my arms and you looked at me with the biggest smile and I knew right then and there you and I were going to be kindred spirits.

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We love you Marty, Leesee, Tally and Maile!

We are so thankful to your parents for giving us opportunities and time to take you with us go to play, swim and even go camping!  We’ve had so much fun traveling with you and your family to Louisiana, family reunions, and California including DISNEYLAND!

Time spent with you has been healing for our hearts that yearn to be parents every day.  We want so badly to be parents, and when we spend time with you, just the three of us, we get a small glimpse at how excited we are to have our own little family one day.

Your pure excitement you show when we put you in your car seat to go out with us is our favorite thing to see.

Watching your little body burst with joy when we take you swimming and falling asleep on the way home to your parents after a busy day of playing with us melts our hearts every time.

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Thank you for loving us, cause we sure do love you!

We look forward to watching you grow and learn!  But please stay little a little longer 🙂

Tell your parents you need to come to St. George so we can go play some more!!… Your parents and sisters can come too….I know your Mom would love a weekend getaway in sunny St. George!

We love you Tupou!  Happy Birthday!

Love, Us

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The Hintze Family

I’m thankful for seasons in life.  They bring new experiences, change, and challenges that help you grow.

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Yet, it’s still hard for me to accept that my family is in a season that only allows us to all be together once or twice every couple of years.

So when we do get the chance to be together and be in the temple, you can bet I’m going to share lots and lots of pictures!

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But thanks to modern day technology, when we are a part, we get to talk, share pictures and videos all day, everyday, keeping each other up to date and it feels like we are all together… virtually 🙂

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Looking forward to our next wonderful reunion!

Hoping and praying to have a baby or two for Hailame and I to bring with us 🙂

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love, hannah jane

Almond Flour Thumbprint Cookies

I have been wanting to learn how to be more resourceful with Almond Flour.  It can be difficult to bake with alternative gluten free flours, because they absorb and bake different than regular flour.

Earlier this week I was having a sweet tooth and wanted to try my hand at almond flour cookies.  I have been craving thumbprint cookies (not sure why) and have been looking through Pinterest to find the right recipe that doesn’t involved me going to the store 🙂

I finally found a recipe from #Bakerita, and it was just what I needed! —>Recipe

These cookies were super simple and easy to make!

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The recipe says to roll the dough into a ball and then chill for 30 minutes to 24 hours. However, since I was planning on baking them right away, I rolled them into balls immediately and then chilled them for 45 minutes.

I used my own homemade strawberry jam as the filling and it was perfect (because there is nothing more perfect than homemade jam!!)!

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Sweet Tooth satisfied!

love, hannah jane