We are so blessed.

Hailame and I are still in awe at the amount of support and success that came from the Yard Sale.  It was such a humbling experience to see all who came over to support our cause and share our excitement.

We want to thank everyone who sent us donations to sell at the Yard Sale!  I’ve said this so many times, but the amount of donations we received exceeded my expectations about 10 times!

I am in awe at the generosity of so many people.  Thank you, thank you thank you!

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To my dear friends and family who came to my house to help me organize the plethora amounts of clothes, electronics, kitchenware, decor, crafts, etc, etc, etc… Thank you for coming and helping me in my state of chaos when I didn’t even know where to start!

Part of receiving donations was going to multiple homes to pick up the donations, thank you to the multiple men who were available at the drop of a hat to come and help my husband pick up donations during the last few weeks.

Thank you to those who came and bought something, even though you probably didn’t need it, gave a little extra, wouldn’t allow us to give you change back, or sent us money, we have no words to express our gratitude.

To my parents and oldest sister, thank you for driving out for 24 hours to come and support.  It was a short trip and not as eventful as your usual visits but having your presence there was enough for me.

Thank you to my husband’s Dad who flew down to come and support us, having you around always puts my husband in a better mood!

Our expectant birth parents, having you come and support was the biggest surprise yet.  We are so thankful for you coming and hanging around all day to help us wherever needed.  Thank you for making the drive down, we loved spending the day with you.

Our family who stayed throughout the Yard Sale to keep an eye on things, collect funds, and then help clean up, we owe you so much!  We couldn’t have done it without you!  It would have taken us a week to clean up everything if we didn’t have the extra hands helping us get everything cleaned up!

Hailame, my hubs, best friend, #1 support, thank you for getting on board with the Yard Sale.  I know we both didn’t think we would get much out of it, but man we were surprised!  Thank you for staying up late the week of the Yard Sale to organize, pick up donations, and helping with every tiny little request I had.

You. Are. The. Best! (and you already know that!)

We are so blessed and so excited to be bringing a baby into a family that is loved and supported by countless family and friends!

love, hannah jane

Adoption Update: The Homestudy

After being on a high of excitement announcing that we are planning to adopt, and receiving so many words of encouragement and support, we slowly came down to reality again and entered a new phase of our journey to adoption…

The Home Study.

We are so thankful to have found a Social Worker who is so easy to work with and allows us to work through this next phase at our own pace, but has always been accessible for all our questions and needs.

The way I look at this phase of adoption is like getting “certified” or “pre-qualified” to adopt.

Completing a home study is not hard, it is just time consuming.

 

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There are multiple forms that need to be submitted from financial history records, FBI background checks, State background check, fertility medical reports, requesting letters of recommendation, a long detailed questionnaire and a few others I can’t remember right now.

I thought that the questionnaire would be the easiest to complete, but surprisingly enough, it has been the most time consuming (especially for Hailame, who isn’t a fan of computers).

Answering questions on what Hailame and I enjoy doing together, describe the make up of my family, how do we resolve conflict, what kind of discipline did our parents raise us on, how we plan to bring up our children, do we have health benefits, describing in detail the home our child will be raised in, the community we live in, etc. etc. etc.

After submitting all the necessary paperwork, our home will be reviewed by our Social Worker to be sure our home is “baby safe,” and after we bring our new baby into our home, there will be a follow up visit from our Social Worker as well.

We are close to completing our home study.  So close.

With our Home Study, we are each required to complete 10 hours of Adoption Educational Learning.  We can read books, watch videos, and complete online learning courses.

If you know of any good learning resources for us to look into, we are open to any and all suggestions, so please feel free to share your insights!

Happy Wednesday! Enjoy some spiritual enlightenment here!

love, hannah jane

Something about the beach…

There’s something about the beach that brings out the good news in our relationship!

So to start off this month of Thanksgiving,

and to keep the tradition going…

We are…

overjoyed.

ecstatic.

thrilled.

humbled.

delighted.

happy.

blessed.

THANKFUL.

and so excited to share

that the most prayed for little baby is currently growing in our hearts, and will be growing our family.

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looking forward to sharing more details…

but until then please commence with celebrating like crazy with us!!!!

love, hannah jane

“Our Heavenly Father does answer prayers in HIS own time and in HIS own way.” Thomas S. Monson

 

 

This is Us, PCOS Month, & Infertility

****Just so you know…I’m talking about the Episode 1 of This is Us.  If you haven’t watched it, just know I warned you before sharing spoilers!

***If you don’t care, by all means keep reading!

**If you haven’t ever watching This is Us, please go and watch it!

I’ve been meaning to share my thoughts about PCOS all month, but I couldn’t gather my thoughts the way I had hoped.  I’m glad I kept putting it off because last night watching one of my favorite TV Shows ignited so many insights and impressions!  So here I am, two day’s before the month ends, sharing my thoughts about PCOS Awareness!

Enjoy!

I love that one of my favorite TV Shows, “This Is Us”, shared the raw and heart wrenching pain that comes from Infertility and PCOS, especially since September is PCOS Awareness Month.

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The reasoning why Kate was diagnosed with PCOS wasn’t fully accurate because PCOS is not always weight driven.  It is just one symptom of many other factors that are a part of PCOS (and for some, weight isn’t even involved in their diagnosis), but I still love that it was shared in this situation.  This article from Bustle was a great read for appreciating the exposure for PCOS, but wanting to clarify that there is so much more to PCOS.

Kate’s birthday party emotional break down is what really hit home for me in this whole episode.  I felt like Kate was reading my journal when she literally exploded all her frustration of being trapped in a body that wouldn’t lose the weight she worked tirelessly for, and couldn’t make the baby she yearned for.

I’ve been in situations when I’ve tried to explain my frustrations to a friend and I know that they fully care for me and want to help me, but just as Kate’s friends reacted, don’t always know what to say in moments like that.

For me, I don’t necessarily need to be told anything.  Most times, I just want to be heard and loved, but don’t want to be told what do to.  I’ve done so much homework on PCOS, and so I know what I need to do, and I actively try to work on everything I can to thrive in PCOS and Infertility.

So, when I unload my heart ache and frustration on someone (usually a very close friend, family member of my husband), most of the time it’s because I just needed to get it out because I had been bottling it up for so long and I needed to detox my soul.

I’m so thankful to those who have patiently listened and allowed me to open up.  These moments are not daily, but do happen every now and then and I’m so glad I have family and friends that I can confide in.

PCOS is a part of my life that I’m learning to accept and be actively taking care of, however, PCOS does not define me.

Most days I am spot on in taking care of my self, and I almost forget that I even have PCOS.  Some day don’t go so well and my symptoms are slapping me in the face.

I am 1 in 10 women who live with PCOS.

This 4 letter acronym answered so many questions I had been struggling with and in the exact same moment empowered me.

Infertility is not the end of the road for my husband and me.  It has been a bumpy, long, and emotional road, but we know there are other ways to grow our family and we are working our tails off to get through this Adoption Adventure.

Just like I appreciate Kate’s vulnerable moment of PCOS and Infertility watching this episode, I really loved Randall’s moment of joy when Deja told him she was ready to be officially adopted into their family.

I cannot wait until Hailame and I get to experience that moment of finding out we get to finally be parents through the sweet opportunity of adoption.

love, hannah jane

Some of my other insights and experiences with PCOS and Infertility

PCOS: A letter to the newly diagnosed

Infertility… and a bag of chips

Comparison is the Thief of Joy

Infertility Awareness Month

 

Happy Birthday Baby Tupou!

Dear Baby Tupou,

Today is your 1st birthday, Happy Birthday!

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In the one year you have been alive, you have done more for our baby yearning hearts than you will ever know.

I still remember the moment I knew you and I were going to be kindred spirits!  It was a simple moment, not one that many would recognize as being life changing, but for me, it was special.

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It was during a musical we were watching that Big Tupou was performing in.  We were hanging out during the intermission, and I asked your Mom if I could hold you, and the second I held you in my arms and you looked at me with the biggest smile and I knew right then and there you and I were going to be kindred spirits.

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We love you Marty, Leesee, Tally and Maile!

We are so thankful to your parents for giving us opportunities and time to take you with us go to play, swim and even go camping!  We’ve had so much fun traveling with you and your family to Louisiana, family reunions, and California including DISNEYLAND!

Time spent with you has been healing for our hearts that yearn to be parents every day.  We want so badly to be parents, and when we spend time with you, just the three of us, we get a small glimpse at how excited we are to have our own little family one day.

Your pure excitement you show when we put you in your car seat to go out with us is our favorite thing to see.

Watching your little body burst with joy when we take you swimming and falling asleep on the way home to your parents after a busy day of playing with us melts our hearts every time.

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Thank you for loving us, cause we sure do love you!

We look forward to watching you grow and learn!  But please stay little a little longer 🙂

Tell your parents you need to come to St. George so we can go play some more!!… Your parents and sisters can come too….I know your Mom would love a weekend getaway in sunny St. George!

We love you Tupou!  Happy Birthday!

Love, Us

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The Perfect Dad

Since deciding to adopt and starting the process to find the sweet baby to join our family, the more excited I get to see Hailame as a Dad.

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Hailame was made to be a dad.

Besides the fact that I find him extremely attractive when holding babies, Hailame has been anxious and ready to start this new chapter in our life.

He is the Uncle adored by all of our nieces and nephews.  Since we’ve been married, the new name I’ve taken on is, “Hi Hannah, where’s Hyrum.” (not joking at all!)

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When we are at our parents’ homes, you will most likely find him in the backyard or running around the house playing with the kids.

EVERYWHERE we go, he makes an instant connection to kids.  I don’t know how he does it, but he is a child whisperer and just knows how to connect with them.

At our home in St. George, neighborhood children know where he keeps his secret stash of goodies, and he is the biggest push over when it comes to giving treats away.

Hailame is a father figure to our older nephews teaching by example how to treat others and what it means to be a man.

He sets an example to our nieces on how every man should treat and respect women.

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I’m so lucky to be his partner in this adventure, and I can’t wait to watch our own children fall in love with him the way the I and the rest of the children in our lives have!

love, hannah jane

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our GRAND new adventure

We are excited to announce that we will be starting a GRAND adventure!

Ironically, it has nothing to do with the Grand Canyon, but everything sounds so much more exciting when you say that it’s GRAND!

But we do love the Grand Canyon, and go there often!

Anyway… scroll down to see our exciting news!

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We have decided to build our family through the beautiful opportunity of adoption!

Once we decided that this is the answer to our prayers, everything has felt right.  This is the first time in a long time that I am fully at peace, and confident that this is the road for Hailame and me.

This is unique experience that we are eager to be apart of, and I have already started to pray for the amazing birth Mother and sweet Miracle Baby that we are excited to find and make part of our family!20180714_164744_Film4

More updates coming soon!

love, hannah jane