the ultra sound

I had the wonderful opportunity to be present at our baby’s ultra sound a few days after Christmas. This ultrasound was such an amazing experience to participate in.

Before this ultrasound, I personally had gone through many ultrasounds when my doctors were trying to diagnose my PCOS and infertility problems.

Each and every ultrasound became harder and harder to go through hearing time and time again what was wrong with me.

My ovaries are covered in cysts.

My Fallopian tubes are clogged.

My body isn’t cycling properly.

One of my fallopian Tubes no longer is working.

Some cysts are gone, but there are still a lot there.

etc. etc. etc.

I started to dread going to ultra sounds because I usually came out crying knowing I had bottled up a lot of frustrations before each ultra sound and all emotions came loose during them (my poor doctors…)

So to have the opportunity to have apart of an ultrasound showing a beautiful miracle inside, a miracle that Hailame and I have as our own and to have the extraordinary woman, who is allowing us to have this child, invite me to be there to see this beautiful miracle was a tender mercy my soul has been longing for.

No words can express how my heart felt the first time see that sweet baby in the “ultra sound cam” (I don’t know the correct terminology.)

After months and years of continuous uncertainty and no’s from doctors, there was a baby girl growing and waiting to see us in a few short months.

This ultrasound was a strong confirmation that God answers our prayers in ways that we don’t expect.

He puts people in our lives that can help us, and we can help them.

Hailame and I are so thankful and humbled to be going through the adoption journey. We have learned so much and have discovered new meanings of love, family, and questions answered from God.

love, hannah jane

this baby has our hearts

Before we ever considered adoption, we received countless compliments that our children would be so beautiful with a mix of two cultures, and I loved it.  I would often talk about how I hope that our children inherit my husband’s beautiful thick hair, or my blue eyes. 

I would picture them in my mind of having my husband’s beautiful skin, with my facial expressions.  I imagined looking at our children and noticing the similarities of both of our family characteristics.

I think most couples do this as they dream of their future children. 

Since preparing for our adoption, I’ve realized that although our children may never have my nose, or my husband’s eyes, there are so many attributes and characteristics I hope this child will gain from our family.

I hope that our child will grow up appreciating family traditions. 

I am optimistic that our child will inherit Hailame’s sense of humor and positive outlook on life. 

I guarantee that this child will grow up loving music (just like his parents!)

I’m sure this child will want to be a clogger like their mom… and DAD!

I hope that this child will love to serve others.

I’m planning on this sweet baby loving to spend time with grandparents and cousins.

I hope that this child will grow to have Hailame’s pure goodness and kindness.

As a homemaker, I pray our child will grow up loving to create.

I know this child will grow up knowing they are so loved and adored by us.

This child may not look like me or my husband, but this child will grow up with our hearts.

love, hannah jane

my best of 2018

2018 was one for the Hailame and Hannah Tua’one memory book! Our life took so many unexpected turns and changes, and in the moment, it was a little scary, but looking back, we are exactly where we are needing to be, and we are so thankful!

Here are a few of my favorites from 2018….

January

New Years in Page, AZ.

Not the best place to celebrate NYE if you don’t drink (which we don’t). We spent NYE in our hotel room with dinner purchased from the local food market and spent New Years Day hiking and driving around beautiful Northern Arizona!

February

Decided to look into IVF.

Meeting with Infertility Doctor’s is a extremely vulnerable place to be in. Both Hailame and I were very humbled by the situation, and have a greater respect for those who have been successful with IVF.

March

Day trip to Lake Mead and Hoover Dam.

April

Infertility Awareness Month

Shared my thoughts here

May

Turned 28.

First trip to NOLA (New Orleans, LA)

June

Decided stop pursing IVF and look into adoption.

Tua’one family activities!

July

Went to California with Hailame’s brother’s family.

Announced to all our family and friends that we are adopting!

August

Hintze Family activities!

September

Hailame turns 39.

Blessed to find a baby to adopt! (baby due in May!)

October

Four Year Anniversary.

November

Adoption Yard Sale (I regret not taking more pictures!)

December

Family Christmas festivities

It’s a girl!

We are humbled by the many blessings and experiences we had in 2018 and we are excited to see what 2019 has in store for us!

love, hannah jane

We are so blessed.

Hailame and I are still in awe at the amount of support and success that came from the Yard Sale.  It was such a humbling experience to see all who came over to support our cause and share our excitement.

We want to thank everyone who sent us donations to sell at the Yard Sale!  I’ve said this so many times, but the amount of donations we received exceeded my expectations about 10 times!

I am in awe at the generosity of so many people.  Thank you, thank you thank you!

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To my dear friends and family who came to my house to help me organize the plethora amounts of clothes, electronics, kitchenware, decor, crafts, etc, etc, etc… Thank you for coming and helping me in my state of chaos when I didn’t even know where to start!

Part of receiving donations was going to multiple homes to pick up the donations, thank you to the multiple men who were available at the drop of a hat to come and help my husband pick up donations during the last few weeks.

Thank you to those who came and bought something, even though you probably didn’t need it, gave a little extra, wouldn’t allow us to give you change back, or sent us money, we have no words to express our gratitude.

To my parents and oldest sister, thank you for driving out for 24 hours to come and support.  It was a short trip and not as eventful as your usual visits but having your presence there was enough for me.

Thank you to my husband’s Dad who flew down to come and support us, having you around always puts my husband in a better mood!

Our expectant birth parents, having you come and support was the biggest surprise yet.  We are so thankful for you coming and hanging around all day to help us wherever needed.  Thank you for making the drive down, we loved spending the day with you.

Our family who stayed throughout the Yard Sale to keep an eye on things, collect funds, and then help clean up, we owe you so much!  We couldn’t have done it without you!  It would have taken us a week to clean up everything if we didn’t have the extra hands helping us get everything cleaned up!

Hailame, my hubs, best friend, #1 support, thank you for getting on board with the Yard Sale.  I know we both didn’t think we would get much out of it, but man we were surprised!  Thank you for staying up late the week of the Yard Sale to organize, pick up donations, and helping with every tiny little request I had.

You. Are. The. Best! (and you already know that!)

We are so blessed and so excited to be bringing a baby into a family that is loved and supported by countless family and friends!

love, hannah jane

Something about the beach…

There’s something about the beach that brings out the good news in our relationship!

So to start off this month of Thanksgiving,

and to keep the tradition going…

We are…

overjoyed.

ecstatic.

thrilled.

humbled.

delighted.

happy.

blessed.

THANKFUL.

and so excited to share

that the most prayed for little baby is currently growing in our hearts, and will be growing our family.

May 2019

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looking forward to sharing more details…

but until then please commence with celebrating like crazy with us!!!!

love, hannah jane

“Our Heavenly Father does answer prayers in HIS own time and in HIS own way.” Thomas S. Monson

 

 

Hailame Feletoa Tua’one

I’d like to introduce my husband, favorite person and best friend, Hailame Feletoa Tua’one.  The man who you’ll rarely ever see not wearing a hat (and has 40+ laying around the house), who loves all things BYU, looks younger than majority of his siblings and has an Australian accent when he starts talking about the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

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I was planning on having him write about himself, but I’m pretty sure the whole post would consist of 3 sentences, and then he would say, “Babe, you already know me, just do it for me,” which he did say when I was asking him some questions about himself. :)… which shows how much I know about him!

From the perspective of his wife and his favorite person, I don’t want this post to seem to bias, some parts will be but I’ll do my best to share who he is as a individual, friend, uncle, brother, son, and future father.

Family Man

Hailame comes from a large Tongan family, like a really large Tongan family.  He is 3rd of 12 kids (6 boys and 6 girls) and is the oldest son.  He loves spending time with his family (especially his Dad and brothers) and is the beloved favorite Uncle of 30+ nieces and nephews!

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Something unique and wonderful about coming from the rich Tongan heritage is EXTENDED family relationships (and they are most definitely close relationships).  Hailame has combined, from both sides of the family, over 200 FIRST cousins, and they are as close as siblings are and all get together regularly.

The amount of love and support that comes from Hailame’s extended family is incredible.  They come to support each other for baby blessings, baptisms, birthdays, graduations, weddings and more.

 

Hailame loves his parents and family so much. He is a Mama’s Boy to his wonderful Mother, and his Dad’s #1 sidekick.  There isn’t a day that goes by that doesn’t he calls or texts one of his parents to check in on them to see how they are doing.  He lives to serve and support them in any way he can.

Working Man

Hailame gives all the credit to his father for his hard working ethic.  From a young age he was taught how to work, and work well.  He is regularly the first to offer to help others and the last to leave a function or event so he can help with cleaning up.

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When visiting family in Salt Lake City, you will most likely find Hailame spending his time working a long side his Dad, whether it be at his job or around the house.  He looks forward to continually learning from his Dad, as well as talking to and learning from his Dad about his Tongan heritage.

Hailame’s Mom was the first love of his life!  He loves spending time in the kitchen with her when she is preparing a wedding or birthday cake or desserts for an event.  His Mom taught him how to bake from a young age, and was given the nickname of “Pillsbury Boy” for his mad baking skills.

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A large part of Hailame’s big heart was from his Mom.  She is the #1 Mom, Grandma, Auntie, and Friend who will lives to bless others with her talents.

Hailame enjoys working and serving others, being productive and providing for our family.  He never sees any job below him, and is willing to put in the time to sufficiently provide.

People Person Man

Hailame loves spending time with people.  I can guarantee that if you come by our house, he will invite you to stay and ask if you would like anything to eat. On Sundays, he usually asks me to make a little extra dinner so he can invite friends over.

He loves meeting new people, and has a talent for remembering people, and their names.  Quite often, people won’t remember my name, but they’ll say, :”aren’t you married to Hyrum?”  Or “isn’t your husband the really awesome Polynesian?  He is so nice and so cool!”  I can accept it, because I always agree that he is an awesome Polynesian and super nice and way cool!  I know…I have great taste… I married him obviously!

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Hailame has a way of people putting people at ease when they are around him.  He is easy to talk to, will start up the conversation if no one is talking, and will leave with a new friend by the end of the conversation.

Fun Man

In addition to being a people person man, Hailame is also a fun man!  If you’re hanging out with Hailame, you will most likely be listening to music because he LOVES music and he carries a mini and/or larger Bluetooth speaker around with him EVERYWHERE he goes.

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He loves playing pickleball, and especially enjoys teaching our friends how to play pickleball, so he has more friends to play with.  If he had his way, we would be playing pickleball every single night of the week!

Playing card games is a regular activity in our relationship.  A tradition he started early in our marriage was playing cards when we go out to eat while waiting for our food to come.  When we invite friends to our house, we play cards, when we go up north to visit family, he plays cards until 1 or 2 in the morning with his Dad, Mom and brothers.

Hailame has a very contagious positive outlook on life.  It’s hard to not have his good attitude and happiness effect you because he has such a huge heart and is always trying to make others happy around him.  Very few things in life upset him (one of the few… when BYU loses a football game), and he has a way with helping others see the good in life.

Christlike Man

Hailame is a man of action when it comes to living the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  He loves to serve those around him.  He attributes his dedication to living a Christlike life to his parents who taught by example what it means to minister and give to those and need.   His testimony of the Gospel shows through the way he lives his life and how he serves and loves those around him.

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His motto in sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ is “Open Your Mouth.”  He believes that the best way in reaching out to those is putting aside your fears and opening your mouth.  He is the best at speaking to those he doesn’t know and does his best to find how he can help them and showing true Christlike love to them.

Future Father Man

Obviously this small post can’t possibly encompass and describe the man that Hailame is, but I hope that it will give a small glimpse into the kind of Future Father he will be one day.

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Hailame is going to be a wonderful dad.  The children that come into our home will be completely adored by him and they will know daily how much he loves them and who their #1 Fan is for life.  He will teach by example how to be good, honest, selfless, patient, and hardworking.

He was made to be dad and I promise you, he will be the best dad.

love,

His #1 Fan

hannah jane

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We love you already

Dear future baby,

I know we haven’t met, but that’s okay, we love you already.

We love that you are going to be an answer to the endless prayers we been saying for a long time.

We love your birth Mother who will entrust you to be ours.

We love that you will be brought into a family with loving grandparents, and MANY aunts, uncles and cousins.

We love the newborn smell you’ll have for the first little while of your newborn life.

We love the sleepless nights we’ll have with you as you learn to sleep through the night.

We love the extra the bag of “just in case”  and “always be prepared” items we’ll carry around regularly just to make sure you are well taken care of.

We love that you will most likely be dressed better than we ever will because it’s way more fun to dress up babies than ourselves.

We love the accidental smiles that will eventually turn into real smiles

We love that our Instagram and Facebook posts will mainly consist of you and the genius baby you are as you successfully eat peas for the time or sit up on your own.

We love the “first time” moments we’ll be able to create with you.

We love that we get to be your parents.

We know that it may take some time to find you, but that’s okay.

We love you already.

See you soon.

Love, your parents