****Just so you know…I’m talking about the Episode 1 of This is Us. If you haven’t watched it, just know I warned you before sharing spoilers!
***If you don’t care, by all means keep reading!
**If you haven’t ever watching This is Us, please go and watch it!
I’ve been meaning to share my thoughts about PCOS all month, but I couldn’t gather my thoughts the way I had hoped. I’m glad I kept putting it off because last night watching one of my favorite TV Shows ignited so many insights and impressions! So here I am, two day’s before the month ends, sharing my thoughts about PCOS Awareness!
I love that one of my favorite TV Shows, “This Is Us”, shared the raw and heart wrenching pain that comes from Infertility and PCOS, especially since September is PCOS Awareness Month.
The reasoning why Kate was diagnosed with PCOS wasn’t fully accurate because PCOS is not always weight driven. It is just one symptom of many other factors that are a part of PCOS (and for some, weight isn’t even involved in their diagnosis), but I still love that it was shared in this situation. This article from Bustle was a great read for appreciating the exposure for PCOS, but wanting to clarify that there is so much more to PCOS.
Kate’s birthday party emotional break down is what really hit home for me in this whole episode. I felt like Kate was reading my journal when she literally exploded all her frustration of being trapped in a body that wouldn’t lose the weight she worked tirelessly for, and couldn’t make the baby she yearned for.
I’ve been in situations when I’ve tried to explain my frustrations to a friend and I know that they fully care for me and want to help me, but just as Kate’s friends reacted, don’t always know what to say in moments like that.
For me, I don’t necessarily need to be told anything. Most times, I just want to be heard and loved, but don’t want to be told what do to. I’ve done so much homework on PCOS, and so I know what I need to do, and I actively try to work on everything I can to thrive in PCOS and Infertility.
So, when I unload my heart ache and frustration on someone (usually a very close friend, family member of my husband), most of the time it’s because I just needed to get it out because I had been bottling it up for so long and I needed to detox my soul.
I’m so thankful to those who have patiently listened and allowed me to open up. These moments are not daily, but do happen every now and then and I’m so glad I have family and friends that I can confide in.
PCOS is a part of my life that I’m learning to accept and be actively taking care of, however, PCOS does not define me.
Most days I am spot on in taking care of my self, and I almost forget that I even have PCOS. Some day don’t go so well and my symptoms are slapping me in the face.
I am 1 in 10 women who live with PCOS.
This 4 letter acronym answered so many questions I had been struggling with and in the exact same moment empowered me.
Infertility is not the end of the road for my husband and me. It has been a bumpy, long, and emotional road, but we know there are other ways to grow our family and we are working our tails off to get through this Adoption Adventure.
Just like I appreciate Kate’s vulnerable moment of PCOS and Infertility watching this episode, I really loved Randall’s moment of joy when Deja told him she was ready to be officially adopted into their family.
I cannot wait until Hailame and I get to experience that moment of finding out we get to finally be parents through the sweet opportunity of adoption.
love, hannah jane
Some of my other insights and experiences with PCOS and Infertility
PCOS: A letter to the newly diagnosed
Infertility… and a bag of chips
Comparison is the Thief of Joy
Infertility Awareness Month