Difficult Roads

On Mother’s Day, I received an anonymous gift.  In side was a card letting me know someone was thinking of me this Mother’s Day, a beautiful necklace and a quote that was just what I needed at that very moment, and still use it to draw strength and encouragement from:

“Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations”

Mountains to Climb

Growing up, I’ve always loved mountains.  Being raised in Salt Lake City, I was surrounded by beautiful mountains.  My parents would regularly take our family camping in the mountains, and I grew up loving Yellow Stone, the Tetons, and other beautiful sites.

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My Family- Mirror Lake- July 2014

But it wasn’t until college, while working at Jacob Lake  Inn, that I really came to appreciate and love mountains.  For 5 fall seasons in a row, I spent 6 days a week working as a waitress and 1 day a week hiking the trails of Zion National Park, Snow Canyon, the Grand Canyon, Northern Arizona and the Kaibab National Forest.  During my 2 hour work breaks, I would go trail running in the forest close to the Inn, and I hiked Rim2Rim of the Grand Canyon 3 times.

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Grand Canyon’s Cape Royal- May 2013

It was in these moments that I pushed myself to do hard things.  These experiences gave me that drive to challenge myself and try new things and see beautiful, amazing and breath taking views and destinations (cue Hannah Montana’s “It’s the Climb” 🙂

I’m continuing to learn that life in its self is a mountain that we are climbing everyday, or maybe more like we are climbing multiple mountains with different experiences we have…. marriage, careers, family,  goals, daily tasks, etc.

Not every experience is a trial, and each experience brings learning and new outlooks on life no matter how simple or drastic it is.  With each trail in life, I’ve learned that my attitude and outlook  has a lot of control in how much I take away from my experience and what I learn.

***BACK TO THE NECKLACE***

As you can see, that small act of kindness from whoever sent me the necklace and quote really helped me remember what I’m capable of.

I love this necklace, and it has helped mold my outlook on the kind of woman, wife, mother, and individual I want to be.

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Colorado River- New Years Day 2018

Just because I’m not regularly plateauing Angel’s Landing, crossing the Colorado River while doing Rim2Rim or running through the Kaibab Forest doesn’t mean I’m not capable of conquering the mountains I have in front of me right now.

I can conquer every mountain I’m climbing right now.

I can take control of how I approach PCOS, and not allowing the symptoms to define who I am.

Hailame and I will be able to have a family of our own.

I am capable of disciplining myself to become healthier.

I will be a Mother… one day.

Why?

Because…

Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations…

and my road of life is beautiful.

love, hannah jane

p.s. If the wonderful person who sent me this gift is reading this, thank you for thinking of me, it was and is just what I need.

a long weekend

***FYI: This post is more like a journal entry and doesn’t have a lot to do with anything, just talking about my average everyday life with my wonderful hubby 🙂

I am thankful for long weekends that don’t include obligatory functions, traveling, coming back to real life exhausted due to a busy weekend.

Hannah only portion of the long weekend:

I was lucky to have one of those weekends where I was able to really relax.

Hailame had to go up to Salt Lake City to attend a family wedding (oldest Tongan son traditions), and I didn’t want to take off work so I could attend another family function this coming weekend, so on Thursday night, Friday and Saturday it was just me at the house.

pedicure

Thursday evening was a Girl Night.  I went and got a much needed pedicure with one of my good friends, Tiffany.  We had been talking about this for weeks, and I’m so glad we finally made it happen.. we even did a little karaoke while getting our toes painted and after we went and got snow cones and had some much needed girl talk!

Friday night I stayed in and watched Downton Abbey, started a 1,000 piece puzzle, and fell asleep on the couch. Bliss…

Saturday, I woke up around 8:00 am and cleaned the house!  It was wonderful!

I was able to de-clutter, reorganize, vacuum, dust, scrub and do ALL of my laundry and not have one dirty clothing item anywhere (which was short lived once Hailame came home Saturday evening…)!

I took a giant load of unwanted items to Deseret Industries Thrift Store (and didn’t even go inside to buy more stuff!), I attempted to work on some unfinished sewing projects… but didn’t get too far since my sewing machine was acting ridiculous and wouldn’t let me thread it!.. moving on.

I was in such a cleaning groove, I even vacuumed my car, shampooed the seats, wiped down the whole interior, and blew all the leaves/dead cockroaches out of the car port–> super stressful, by the way, making sure they didn’t blow on top of me, or didn’t step on them!

I felt so accomplished, and I finished all these projects by 3:00 pm giving me time to make dinner (Chicken Cordon Bleu casserole with veggies!) and work on the puzzle some more and watch more of Downton Abbey before Hailame came home at 6:30 pm.

Hailame and Hannah portion of the weekend:

Saturday evening we went to our friends house, the Howell’s, to play cards, watch a basketball game and eat s’mores, cookies (Crumbl Cookie has come to St. George) and ice cream.  At 10:00 pm the Hailame and Blaine decided to watch “The Sixth Sense” which I promptly slept through, and after the movie Hailame and Blaine played cards for another hour while Kelsey and I were knocked out on the couch.  We didn’t go home until 1:30 am.

Sunday after church, we went back to the Howells for dinner and games (staying pretty late knowing we didn’t have to go to work on Monday!  Wahoo!)

Monday was a good day, an extremely good day.

Swimming

We slept in, no I slept in and Hailame went fishing with Blaine and Hunter (Blaine’s son).  I woke up around 9:00 am and made some breakfast and turned on Gilmore Girls and worked on the puzzle until Hailame got home.

We lounged around the house for a bit then went swimming.  The pool was cold and then cloudy weather didn’t help, but it was our first swim of the season and it was wonderful!  After swimming, we came home and took a nap for a couple of hours before eating some dinner and playing pickleball with some of our friends, the Gorringes, where Hailame broke one of our paddles during the first game.  🙂

Pickle Ball

This was a much needed weekend, and I wished it wouldn’t end.  Spending all day with Hailame is my favorite thing to do, even if we are just lounging around the house.

Next paid holiday, my favorite holiday, Independence Day!…. Only 35 days away!

love, hannah jane