The Honey Moon-a-versary

Our anniversary was on a Wednesday this year, and rather than waiting to celebrate on the weekend, Hailame and I splurged a little and decided to take the day of our anniversary off and spend the day together.

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***QUICK SIDE STORY***

One thing that Hailame is very good at is listening for the little things that I say, and when I completely forget about them, he surprises me.

While we were engaged, I mentioned that I always wanted to stay in a hotel room that had a gigantic Jacuzzi in the main room, not the bathroom area.

I didn’t really think anything of it past that small mention, but he took the time before our wedding looking for a hotel room that had a gigantic Jacuzzi in the main area of the hotel room.

It was the most wonderful surprise walking into our hotel room the first night as a married couple!  The Jacuzzi was gigantic and beautiful!

***BACK TO OUR HONEY MOON-A-VERSARY***

On the night before our Anniversary, Hailame told me not to make dinner, and to grab a change of clothes because we were going out for dinner and staying in a surprise hotel room.  He wouldn’t say where, but he said I would love it!

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When we were on our way to the hotel, he said that he didn’t realize the location of the hotel until after paying for the room… only to find out we were about 3 blocks away from our house! Haha!

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I didn’t even mind, staying in a hotel room is always fun no matter how close or far from your home!

We pulled into the Best Western Coral Hill, and sure enough he reserved the Honey Moon Suite, and this time the Jacuzzi was heart shaped!

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It was most the most wonderful room I had ever seen!  We had such a good time relaxing in that room.  We had our own private balcony and spent a good hour sitting out there enjoying the beautiful fall evening and laughing that could almost see our home 🙂

The day of anniversary was spent with no schedule, and just doing as we please.  We decided to go and spend majority of the day in Cedar City, and it was nice to get out of St. George.

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We went to Deseret Industries Thrift Store (of course), watched the movie Venom (which I surprisingly really liked) and then went to a quaint restaurant for dinner just outside of Cedar called Rusty’s Ranch House. 

It was the perfect day, and was one of my favorite anniversaries spent with Hailame!

Here’s to many many more!

Happy Married Life!

love, hannah jane

P.S Happy Weekend!

Enjoy some spiritual enlightenment here!

 

 

Happy Four Years My Love

***LATE POST DUE TO A MUCH NEEDED SOCIAL MEDIA FAST***

Dear Hailame,

It’s October 10, 2018.

Happy four years my love.

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Happy 1,424 days full of memories with…

laughter, learning, forgiving, spontaneous road trips, hats laying around the house

lazy Saturday mornings, Thrift Store date nights, playing pickle ball, car dancing

Tongan singing lessons, banana bread, Temple dates, Netflix nights

spoiling our nieces and nephews, praying, swimming at the lake

late night walks around the temple, $5 movie dates, family functions

growing from trials, celebrating the little victories

praying and yearning start our family

enjoying the little moments together

and having an absolute blast.

Wedding Anniversary

 

Thank you for your endless positive outlook in seeing the good in life.

You are the cheese to my mac., the peanut butter to my homemade strawberry jam

the chocolate chip to my cookie

my best friend and the love of my life.

Ofa Lahi Atu.

Happy Anniversary.

love, your wife

 

 

our GRAND new adventure

We are excited to announce that we will be starting a GRAND adventure!

Ironically, it has nothing to do with the Grand Canyon, but everything sounds so much more exciting when you say that it’s GRAND!

But we do love the Grand Canyon, and go there often!

Anyway… scroll down to see our exciting news!

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We have decided to build our family through the beautiful opportunity of adoption!

Once we decided that this is the answer to our prayers, everything has felt right.  This is the first time in a long time that I am fully at peace, and confident that this is the road for Hailame and me.

This is unique experience that we are eager to be apart of, and I have already started to pray for the amazing birth Mother and sweet Miracle Baby that we are excited to find and make part of our family!20180714_164744_Film4

More updates coming soon!

love, hannah jane

Ask me tomorrow…

Yesterday I had plans to go out with my husband.

We were going to go to see Jurassic Park, for $5 Tuesday and enjoy our free refill for popcorn.  It was going to be a steal for a date.

But instead we spent the evening in the garage with our car mechanic neighbor praying and hoping he would be able to tell us why car is acting up.

I’m not ready to buy a new car…. but I think we might have to…. soon.

So don’t ask me today how I’m doing, I don’t know!  Way too much has happened in the last couple of days…. and I don’t even know where to start or how to take care of it all.

Ask me tomorrow…

love, hannah jane

Difficult Roads

On Mother’s Day, I received an anonymous gift.  In side was a card letting me know someone was thinking of me this Mother’s Day, a beautiful necklace and a quote that was just what I needed at that very moment, and still use it to draw strength and encouragement from:

“Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations”

Mountains to Climb

Growing up, I’ve always loved mountains.  Being raised in Salt Lake City, I was surrounded by beautiful mountains.  My parents would regularly take our family camping in the mountains, and I grew up loving Yellow Stone, the Tetons, and other beautiful sites.

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My Family- Mirror Lake- July 2014

But it wasn’t until college, while working at Jacob Lake  Inn, that I really came to appreciate and love mountains.  For 5 fall seasons in a row, I spent 6 days a week working as a waitress and 1 day a week hiking the trails of Zion National Park, Snow Canyon, the Grand Canyon, Northern Arizona and the Kaibab National Forest.  During my 2 hour work breaks, I would go trail running in the forest close to the Inn, and I hiked Rim2Rim of the Grand Canyon 3 times.

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Grand Canyon’s Cape Royal- May 2013

It was in these moments that I pushed myself to do hard things.  These experiences gave me that drive to challenge myself and try new things and see beautiful, amazing and breath taking views and destinations (cue Hannah Montana’s “It’s the Climb” 🙂

I’m continuing to learn that life in its self is a mountain that we are climbing everyday, or maybe more like we are climbing multiple mountains with different experiences we have…. marriage, careers, family,  goals, daily tasks, etc.

Not every experience is a trial, and each experience brings learning and new outlooks on life no matter how simple or drastic it is.  With each trail in life, I’ve learned that my attitude and outlook  has a lot of control in how much I take away from my experience and what I learn.

***BACK TO THE NECKLACE***

As you can see, that small act of kindness from whoever sent me the necklace and quote really helped me remember what I’m capable of.

I love this necklace, and it has helped mold my outlook on the kind of woman, wife, mother, and individual I want to be.

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Colorado River- New Years Day 2018

Just because I’m not regularly plateauing Angel’s Landing, crossing the Colorado River while doing Rim2Rim or running through the Kaibab Forest doesn’t mean I’m not capable of conquering the mountains I have in front of me right now.

I can conquer every mountain I’m climbing right now.

I can take control of how I approach PCOS, and not allowing the symptoms to define who I am.

Hailame and I will be able to have a family of our own.

I am capable of disciplining myself to become healthier.

I will be a Mother… one day.

Why?

Because…

Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations…

and my road of life is beautiful.

love, hannah jane

p.s. If the wonderful person who sent me this gift is reading this, thank you for thinking of me, it was and is just what I need.

a long weekend

***FYI: This post is more like a journal entry and doesn’t have a lot to do with anything, just talking about my average everyday life with my wonderful hubby 🙂

I am thankful for long weekends that don’t include obligatory functions, traveling, coming back to real life exhausted due to a busy weekend.

Hannah only portion of the long weekend:

I was lucky to have one of those weekends where I was able to really relax.

Hailame had to go up to Salt Lake City to attend a family wedding (oldest Tongan son traditions), and I didn’t want to take off work so I could attend another family function this coming weekend, so on Thursday night, Friday and Saturday it was just me at the house.

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Thursday evening was a Girl Night.  I went and got a much needed pedicure with one of my good friends, Tiffany.  We had been talking about this for weeks, and I’m so glad we finally made it happen.. we even did a little karaoke while getting our toes painted and after we went and got snow cones and had some much needed girl talk!

Friday night I stayed in and watched Downton Abbey, started a 1,000 piece puzzle, and fell asleep on the couch. Bliss…

Saturday, I woke up around 8:00 am and cleaned the house!  It was wonderful!

I was able to de-clutter, reorganize, vacuum, dust, scrub and do ALL of my laundry and not have one dirty clothing item anywhere (which was short lived once Hailame came home Saturday evening…)!

I took a giant load of unwanted items to Deseret Industries Thrift Store (and didn’t even go inside to buy more stuff!), I attempted to work on some unfinished sewing projects… but didn’t get too far since my sewing machine was acting ridiculous and wouldn’t let me thread it!.. moving on.

I was in such a cleaning groove, I even vacuumed my car, shampooed the seats, wiped down the whole interior, and blew all the leaves/dead cockroaches out of the car port–> super stressful, by the way, making sure they didn’t blow on top of me, or didn’t step on them!

I felt so accomplished, and I finished all these projects by 3:00 pm giving me time to make dinner (Chicken Cordon Bleu casserole with veggies!) and work on the puzzle some more and watch more of Downton Abbey before Hailame came home at 6:30 pm.

Hailame and Hannah portion of the weekend:

Saturday evening we went to our friends house, the Howell’s, to play cards, watch a basketball game and eat s’mores, cookies (Crumbl Cookie has come to St. George) and ice cream.  At 10:00 pm the Hailame and Blaine decided to watch “The Sixth Sense” which I promptly slept through, and after the movie Hailame and Blaine played cards for another hour while Kelsey and I were knocked out on the couch.  We didn’t go home until 1:30 am.

Sunday after church, we went back to the Howells for dinner and games (staying pretty late knowing we didn’t have to go to work on Monday!  Wahoo!)

Monday was a good day, an extremely good day.

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We slept in, no I slept in and Hailame went fishing with Blaine and Hunter (Blaine’s son).  I woke up around 9:00 am and made some breakfast and turned on Gilmore Girls and worked on the puzzle until Hailame got home.

We lounged around the house for a bit then went swimming.  The pool was cold and then cloudy weather didn’t help, but it was our first swim of the season and it was wonderful!  After swimming, we came home and took a nap for a couple of hours before eating some dinner and playing pickleball with some of our friends, the Gorringes, where Hailame broke one of our paddles during the first game.  🙂

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This was a much needed weekend, and I wished it wouldn’t end.  Spending all day with Hailame is my favorite thing to do, even if we are just lounging around the house.

Next paid holiday, my favorite holiday, Independence Day!…. Only 35 days away!

love, hannah jane

 

Baby Making Journey Update

I can’t believe how quickly this year is flying by…It’s already May!!!  And May is practically over.  One good thing about this year flying by is that we are getting closer to having our next appointment to find out what our next step will be in this Baby Making Journey.

The last few months have been good for us.  It was motivating having something to work towards.  The Infertility Specialist placed us on special medications to get us “baby healthy ready,” and we have been so dedicated at staying on top of these medications, taking them faithfully.

One part of this time that has been a highlight for me is working together to get healthier.  Hailame and I are eating better and exercising together regularly :)… at 5:00am 😦  but we’ve learned it’s the only time we can really dedicate to going to exercise, because when we both come home from work in the afternoon, neither of us wants to go to the gym, we just want to stay home.

So every morning at 4:30 am, my alarm goes off, and at 4:31 (why one minute after mine, I have no idea) Hailame’s alarm goes off… but he rarely hears it so I end of turning off both of our alarms.

I have to really work to wake Hailame up, he is the deepest sleeper, but the minute he is up, he is the biggest morning person in the world (and really chatty), compared to me where I will wake up, but that is all.  I don’t want to talk, or interact with a lot of people.. give me about 30 minutes, then I may acknowledge your presence. Hailame has learned when he talks to me in the morning, he may or may not get a response, and if he does, it is short and to the point, and then back to silence for me.  🙂

But having Hailame and I go to the gym together has been perfect because I don’t think I would make it over there if I didn’t have his perky energy getting us out the door in the morning!

We are eager and ready to find out what our next step will be in this journey.  We were told three months ago that the usual process is first trying to get pregnant on our own, using clomid.  If that doesn’t work for us, we will do an IUI, then have IVF as our final option.

I’m praying that we are able to get pregnant on our own, obviously because that would save money and time, however at this point, I am willing to do anything!

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Happy Tuesday!

love, hannah jane